31 May 2011

My small hiatus

I miss blogging, I miss you bloggers, I miss the blogosphere.  Honestly, I do, so don't stress, you have not been abandoned nor forgotten!  So the reason for the disappearance? I'll be honest, I'm lazy ha. 

I don't know really, as always my mind is in its usual disarray... although the last few weeks has been in more confusion then usual.  Every few days I get the urge to ramble on this blog, a desperate attempt to unravel what it is that is plaguing my mind.  And while none of my thoughts are of concern, its more the problem that there is too many of them!  But alas, I withheld my urge to ramble, as for the first time my little blog of mine actually has somewhat of a 'follower base' (something that fills me with such joy) thus I am actually more conscious of my post contents =)

So not to fear, there are some headlining topics soon to come! A sneak peak of the topics:
- Global warming as it is a huge passion of mine
- My ongoing battle to decide upon a tattoo idea
- Attempting to knock off some of my life lists
- A further attempt to unravel, sort and catalog my thoughts

Woah, some amazing weeks ahead! Ha...

Hope everyone is going well, keep blogging because I read each and every post.

14 May 2011

Getting old...

The other day was my birthday. I turned a cringe worthy 23... which isn't old for some but it feels old to me! Not too long ago I was turning 18, studying in high school, wondering what University life was going to be like.  At that time I was living at home, together with my then long-term girlfriend, remained close with my amazing group of mates, and still playing drums, video games and having some wild nights out.

Things seemed simpler back then.

Then whoosh! The big 2-1 arrived.  A lot had changed since my 18th, by this stage I was now in my 3rd year of University, had been in my current job for 8 months by that stage, was still with my then long-term girlfriend and still had the same amazing group of friends.  For a while there I was naive enough to believe that this is how it would stay forever.  I know if I had the option to freeze the moment, I certainty would have.  Things weren't always easy, now that I think back on it, but that group of friends, those times of uncertainty and discovery, the prospect of an unknown future, it reminded me of a life I hoped to sustain forever.

I soon realized that was a fruitless dream.

Just after my 21st birthday my girlfriend and I of 4 years broke up, my cherished group of amazing friends split apart spectacularly, I moved out of home permanently which put me further away from my remaining few old friends, and I spent a long time feeling lost and sorry for myself.  Ha, those events are the reason I started this blog in the first place, back in late 2009 when I realized I needed some kind of outlet for what was boiling inside me as my once solid world tumbled all around.

2 years later however, at the ripe old age of 23, much has changed, been accomplished and been realized since those fateful days.  Some for the worst, although thankfully most for the better.

After finishing my University degree I surprised myself by going back for an extra year for an Honours degree, something in which I graduated from and am extremely proud of.  I also went out and took my first steps in exploring the world, holidaying to Queensland (Australia), Vanuatu and surrounding islands, and Thailand, something that seems to have sparked my interest it seems.  I got to teach a class at University for a semester, something that I extremely hope to do again some time. 

And now? Well now I have finally settled down.  I enjoy living away from home, it is nice to have finished my studies (for now), after all this time I am still at my awesome job, and I have made many many new friends in that time.  Now I get to plan for my next step, which at this stage is to move to New York City but hey, who knows what might happen! So much can happen in such short amount of time, and it is absolutely amazing to look back at my 21st birthday and have a snap shot of what life was like then, to be able to compare it to what life is like now, to then wonder how it is going to be like by my 25th.

I don't like getting old, I'd love to stay in my early 20's forever.  What I do like however is the changes, experiences and enjoyment getting old and living life brings.

So with that I say to myself, Happy Birthday, and all the best for what the next year brings =)

07 May 2011

My week

This week, was rather incredible.  It was an ordinary week, although not quite.  I went to work Monday to Friday, played my video games, watched my favourite TV series (currently it is The Big Bang Theory), did my exercise, and spent many a hour researching about my planned world travel.

At this very moment, it is Friday midnight.  I am watching a movie with my awesome housemate Matti on this particularly cold winter's night, in my newest rental home since moving out of my parents house some time ago.  Snuggled under a blanket, bowl of chips by my side and a pillow under my head. And as this week comes to its end, I am a happier man than I remember.

This week, out of the 7 days since now, I ate dinner at my home only once, and that was with the company with 2 friends who came to visit.  The remaining nights were spent out and about with a highly varied array of friends.  Some old, most of them new.  I spoke with confidence, I laughed, made people laugh. I met quite a few new people for the first time and made some great first impressions. It really was a great time all round.

The week start out ordinary, I spent my first night playing Nintendo 64 with my housemate.  The following days I could not have predicted.  And whilst spending 7 consecutive nights out and about having dinner with various friends and acquaintances isn't particularly note worthy (let alone blog worthy), it signifies quite a lot to me when analyzed.

This week was the first time in a far too long of a time where I actually felt like I should feel; 22 years old, single, male, living out of home with all the freedom in the world.  This week, I lived like I should be living.  Something I don't think I have truly done until now. It was so much fun.

It was a true eye opener.

It is funny because as you constantly self assess yourself, or well at least that's what I do, you seem to reach... 'milestones' where you think to yourself 'hmm, I just might be finally getting a knack on this thing called life'.  And just when you think you have figured out as much as you need to know at the time, there is always another lesson to learn that comes when you least expect it.

I will learn from this, grow from this, and use this, as such should all.

I am excited for the future =)